YOU ARE DOING IT, LIVING THE DREAM

Am I? Lol. Someone said that too me this week and I had to laugh. I am definitely traveling a ton and doing a whole bunch of shows in new cities (and countries, as I am currently in Calgary, Canada). But there is a clear difference between doing shows at my level and "living the dream." For one, I am headlining shows in smaller rooms and sometimes, with small crowds. I still open for other bigger acts and, when I headline, have to constantly promote the shows to ensure I have a crowd. In the last few months, I have headlined shows that were at capacity or sold out, but I have also done shows with 7 people in the audience. It humbles you.

Social media reminds me that last year, I was doing a tour opening at theaters of 1500 people and a few years back, I was part of a sold out charity show I produced. With evidence like that, it's hard not to look back and question if you have already peaked with your career, especially as a comedian. While my social media presence is growing and I still get amazing opportunities, its always a struggle not to look back. I am pretty good about not playing the comparison game of "what other comedians are doing" and choose to compare with only myself. And I am very confident that I am a much better comedian than I was last year and the years before. I am at the top of my game, as my friend comedian Gary Gulman said. Sometimes I see opportunities I had when I wasn't as strong a comedian as I am now and wonder if I squandered my chances for more success because of my limited ability back then, even though I did well at the shows.

While walking in a mall today, I saw a quote that said 'success if a journey, not a destination' and that resonated with me, especially when I look at the things I have accomplished this year and the level of writing and performing I am at right now. It is a journey and I am doing it. And yes, the quote was a commercial real estate company. #comedy #success #journey
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